I just drank a bunch of wine and realized that it’s 7:32 and I didn’t write down everything I’m thankful for this Thanksgiving long weekend. Yesterday I spent an hour writing a post about something I’m not thankful for, and I realize that focusing on that kind of negativity is a real downer. So while I had to get all that misery off my chest so I can move on with my life, it’s not the way I want to be.
You see, I choose to be happy. I choose to be optimistic and to look on the brighter side of life and always expect that things will go as I want them to, or the best possible outcome will come out of situation, or that people will act like I would hope they would. During my hour with my therapist this week we talked about my predilection for thinking things will be as I want them to be if I only wish it so.
He told me that I need to get real or I’ll keep being disappointed or hurt. I agree, in a way.
But yet I’m not sure if I’m completely willing to let go of my optimistic ways. I want to expect good things, even when experience tells me that it’s cloudy with a chance of meatballs. Because you see, even if it’s shitty, life is good. It is. I know it is. Even when I don’t want to get out of bed and I feel like everything is awful and nothing is going my way, when I get down with my happy I realize that I have a lot to be thankful for. Maybe less than some and more than others, but still enough to justify the sun rising every day.
For example, I’m thankful…
That I that I can fall asleep and stay asleep
That I woke up this morning
That I have incredible kids who are gorgeous and smart and driven and good people
That I have a husband who loves me and thinks I’m hot
That I have a husband who works hard to provide for his family
That I have a husband who puts up with my crap
That TV is so good
That I have incredible friends who love me even when I’m annoying
That I have the best business partner who is also my friend
That I have a passion for what I do
That I found a great cleaning lady, FINALLY
That I feel driven to OVERshare
That I have a sense of humor
That I found a web designer who returns emails
That movie popcorn tastes so good even when it makes me feel so bad
That I can write words
That I had the love of an amazing father
That I have 3 more fathers who’ve loved me as their own
That I have a mother who loves me even though we’re as different as yoga vs crossfit
That I have food to eat
That I have great hair
That there’s a cure for Graves Disease so I didn’t have a heart attack and die
That I have the strength to punch a boxing bag
That I have material possessions to make my life comfortable
That binge-watching TV was invented
That I have clean water
That most of the time I’m a good driver
That I know how to artfully apply makeup
That I have a nice house that’s mostly not falling apart
That my job affords me the opportunity to have things I couldn’t afford otherwise
That I live in Canada
That chocolate exists
That Adam Levine exists
That I get to do lots of cool things
That I have a pretty good sense of style
That I’m free to be Jewish without worry
That I can be a woman with a voice
That I can still fit into shorts I bought when I was 22
That my children find me amusing
That my dogs love me so much even when I ignore them
That there are many red wines under $15 to enjoy
That I can cook and create delicious things
That my daughter says I’m her best friend
That they invented good-looking jogger pants
That I had a manicure today
That you’re reading this!
That I have a good life.
(Keep coming back. I’m sure I’ll think of more).
PS I don’t even know if this makes sense. As I said, it’s been a hard week and I’ve had a wee tipple.
The TV shows: Nashville, Empire, Young and The Restless and 2 Broke Girls
Winners (the store) and Winners (when it’s me)
Hotels without bed bugs
Potato mashers (multi-purpose)
My gel pillow from Costco
Dirt (to grow vegetables)